Thursday, 27 September 2012

Mud

Finally! It feels good to run again!

Met a friend for a run in the rain.

Nice pace. Legs didn't feel like concrete. Awesome.

There are times where everything seems so utterly hard and pointless. But it always comes right. Eventually.

I really believe that you have to keep running through the mud. Because you WILL get out of it. But you will be so much stronger than if you had just sat in it up to your ears and waited for it to drain away.

Wednesday, 26 September 2012

I have a new running partner.

Jesse. My 7year old. He bikes along next to me and talks the ENTIRE time.

At the end of the run today he said... "Mum... Your bum wobbles when you run. "

Tuesday, 25 September 2012

Warning. Lecture comin!

Calories in. Calories out.

My friend Liz got me into this new app. My Fitness Pal.

You tell it some details about yourself and it will tell you what you need to do to lose weight.

I have been using it for the last 4 days.

Wow. No wonder we all got so fat.

To lose or even maintain our weight ... The amount of food that we can put in to our gob is alarmingly low. Alarmingly. Let me say that again. Alarmingly.

I still have this BLIMMIN last 5 kilos to shift. And now I know why it won't shift.

Here's what I've learnt from these last few days of using this app.

Trying to cut down on food is simply not good enough. I actually have to do it. Not try it. But do it.

Here's the other thing that I've learnt. We have to do something EVERY day so that we can enjoy a decent amount of food and not feel like we're on the 40 hour famine every day.

But that something has to be hard out. Like running. Walking won't cut it. Running for 30 minutes allows you to eat a little extra. It's the difference between feeling starved and feeling replete. Not a lot extra. Just a little.

I really had no idea how fine that scale was. Calories in. Calories out. Tip it slightly one way and you'll never shift the weight. Tip it slightly the other way and you will.

But where's the fun in that? There isn't. It's just a fact. We are fat cos we eat too much.

I know where the fun is. At the end of a run. Knowing that you've actually done enough for a mellowpuff. Just one though. Just one.

Monday, 24 September 2012

And I'm running again.

Put my shoes on... Cranked up the new Mumford album on my iPod and ran.

Driving home from work Kath1 and Kath2 were having a blinder of an argument.

Kath2 was trying to convince Kath1 that she had done enough for the day. That the 5am start deserves a little rest before the school pick up. She put up a wicked pitch ... She really did.

But Kath1 blew her out of the water with this...

Run. It is your right . Put your shoes on and run.

So I did. Kath2 silenced with the first step and gasp for air and the first strum of the Mumford banjo.

Monday, 17 September 2012

Oh man. This is so hard. Running without Nicky. Cos all I can hear are my heavy feet and laboured breathing and my heart beat ringing in my ears.

I only managed 4 ks today.

I thought if I downloaded a snazzy new running app that would motivate me.

But it didn't. Look at this pitiful effort.

I'm on my own.

Sunday, 16 September 2012

When someone shows you a photo you're in... Who is the first person you look at?

You.

Do you spend much time looking at the others in the shot?

Who are you critical about? You? Or them?

Interesting aye.

If you're concerned or worried about what other people think... Please... Don't be.

Because they're not looking at you in that photo.

Guess who they're looking at.

Thursday, 13 September 2012

I'm alone.

Nicky is away for six weeks.

So. I am on my own.

I've just been for a run by myself and it took every single bit of deep down gnarly grit to put my shoes on and run.

So. Now I know how you feel.

It's been a joyous ride this running.... Because I have had Nicky. Turning up every Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday. And I didn't realise just how much I was leaning on her.

Leaning on her... Getting dragged across finish lines... Being pushed and pulled up hills.

And now I'm on my own.

So... I'm with you. Running on my own. Having to find the motivation to run.

How do you do it?

Really... How do you do it.

Monday, 10 September 2012

Gus started school today. So that's it. I'm a mum with two kids at school.
That mad rush to get from work to kindy to school ... No more.
So do you know what I did today?
I ran.
I didn't want to.
I wanted to eat toast and curl up on the couch and watch daytime tv.
But.
I ran.
I really, really didn't want to.
But then there are a lot of things that I really, really don't want to do. But I do them anyway. And mostly those things are for other people.
So I ran. Even though I really, really didn't want to.

And I feel...

Good.

You'll know that feeling if you've been for a run when you really, really didn't want to.

Good.

Thursday, 6 September 2012

Read this if you're about to give up...

If you are struggling to stay on track know this... You are so close. So close to success. So close. You just can't see it. That's why it feels so far away.
If I told you that I could see it and it looks amazing and it was just around that corner you would keep going. You wouldn't stop.

I know you can't see it ... But it's so close. Don't give up now.

It really is just around the corner.

Wednesday, 5 September 2012

Dear Running,

I miss you.

I've been sick. Like really sick. Like almost took a day off work sick.

I love that you will be there when I'm well again. You won't interrogate me about my absence or make me feel bad for putting myself first. I love that you wont judge me or see my sickness as a weakness. I love that you will warmly welcome me back to your road and let me gently find my feet again.

Thank you running. I miss you. I haven't gone away. I'll be back soon.

Yours,

KB

Saturday, 1 September 2012

She's doin' it!!!!

I got this photo this morning from someone who read this blog last night.

It's that simple. Put your shoes on. Tie up your hair. AND RUN!!!!

So happy for her.